7 months!!! the last time i blog was 7 months ago. Oh my god, that's long. I am back, maybe for awhile.

The reason why I blog today is because I feel kinda emotional? confused? I don't know.
Sometimes I really don't know what's the matter with me, and humans.
I had been going out with someone lately and... when it comes to dating... there are ups and downs.
Why do people fall in love and why do people choose not to fall in love. They wanna make it simple by dating..
When people like me, who are not in a relationship, we tend to think that it is fine for us to give another person, or another person, or another person a chance to fall in love.
Falling in love can be the best thing on earth, and of course it can also be the worst. Everyone understand that.
We live our life for so long... Whatever shit that we'd gone through for the past few years can just come back to us, and could hit us back ANYTIME, ANYWHERE, and by ANYONE... That's when people fall in love and get shit from the bad person that exist in this world.
They choose to destroy other people, and they feel good about it. Or sometimes, don't feel a thing.
Since getting into a relationship sometimes might be a little stressful, but sometimes we would never know that.. maybe that guy or the girl standing next to you all the time might be the one who could spend all their life with you.
At least there's a high possibility than dating.

Dating... Dating gave us the priority to open up and be more sociable, have more freedom. And that had linked to
" I am single, I can do whatever shit I want without thinking of my other half "
And that's really unfair, I think.
The reason why I feel so connected to this, It is because that is what going through with my life right now.
Some girls are really generous. (like me)
Who always give chances. We forgive and forget easily because we feel that, people can change, everyone need times to change. And therefore, everyone deserve a second chance. Third chance. One million chance.
Sometimes We might had already lost counts on how many times they disappoint us.
At first it would feels really really terrible, we felt cheated.
At first we confronted. We argued.
But slowly, it became normal... I mean, "I know it, but i choose not to say too much. Because there is no point."
And that's the reason why some people choose not to fall in love. They save themselves from the extras/troubles.
Whatever shits that happens, We don't have to take responsibility for it.

And more and more people choose to walk this path.
When we look at it, It may seems pretty comfortable.
To me dating is like walking a path that are very peaceful and windy, surrounded by trees, flowers and birds.
Trees, flowers and birds will initially bored us till death.
And this path will never end. Slowly we get bored of it, we would run instead of walk.

To me, A real relationship will be like walking a path that surrounded by many interesting things. Like shopping in new york city. The lighting, the food, the interesting people, could also catch a movie or a concert. How nice?
Of course there will be traffic somewhere that will stop us awhile.
And for this, would you rather walk or run?
"I rather walk slowly and reach the point later than rush to the point and missed out the good things that might happen."
When it comes to relationship, there's a whole range of colours and options to explore.

Most of the girl want someone who truly loves them, and someone that they can turn up to anytime.
Others extraordinary girl would want themselves to be a powerful woman.
But sometimes we have to allow ourselves to be weak, in order to grow stronger.

If only people can understand the real reason or the point why god created opposite sex.

Omg so sentimental LOL
It's 7.36am now. My blogpost timing not accurate one hahahaha!
Beautiful Sunday morning!!!! I am going to prepare my breakfast yay!

PS: I am not referring to any particular person. Just my point of view. And i realized that I LOVE to talk about love life, r/s, sex etc. LOL

I'm lying down on my bed. Can't get to sleep at all. Fucking insomnia. Sigh got school insomnia no school also insomnia. Haiya really sick of my life. Club drink sleep go out... Dont even bother to look for a decent job. Spending my mum hard earn money. I should jolly well go to hell. I'm feeling quite down now I feel so lost. I am thinking... why??? Why All in know is to say say say but things never happen. Sigh. Everyday i thought of what can I do in future and will I succeed. Yes or no? I am a potential loser. I want to make things happen but there's always something that caught in between that make me go crazy. I know that my mum had been looking down on me. She don't believe that I can start my own business at this age. She still think that I'm young and stupid. I know in all mums eyes their daughters are always a little girl. But I'm not anymore. Because they don't trust me. It pulls me down. U had no confidence on what I wanna do. At first they Promised me that they would pay for what I want. But when I ask for it, they start to question me again. And I seriously need someone to go abroad with me and get the stocks that I want. But..... I don't even feel like talking about it anymore. I want a bf now a bf that i can trust and that could go a
Anywhere with me. Thats why I am having second thoughts about something right now.... It just hurts so much. I don't know how am I suppose to end all this. There's something I need to settle with someone someday. But I've got no clue on what am I suppose to do. I don't like to be emotional. And I can never show anyone that I am fucking sad. all I can do is just vent it here or spam my Facebook status about how i feel. But seriously who can really understand how a person feel deep inside their heart. I know.... It's not something serious.... Why the fuck am I sad. People look down when they're crying. I looked upwards so as to stop my tears. Hang on there. Or I will bite my tongue to stop myself from crying. Gently bite la but still quite pain. I'm still a girl afterall. Sigh smoke only smoke Byeeeeee

I really can't wait for march to arrive. i really need to start doing some work. I'd already decide what design already. woohoo!! 

so bored. decided to post some pictures. full of myself. camwhore sia seriously same pose onlyyy. last week..

shoppping with babeeee

 

++++++++ MORE SPICY

CHANGE OUTFIT....

MY BIKINSSSS YAYYY!

 

TO MOVIDA..

ZOUK.. fyi... i wore different earrings ahhh hahahahahahha

                               

                                 FUGLYYY HAHAHAHA XD

yea thats all for feb.. im missing some of my gfs like shit! will catch up with them soon <3